Much ablog about nothing

So many wonderful posts have found their way through my brain maze lately, but never to see keyboard nor screen.

I could have written about the bug episode tonight, in which i let a 2 inch bug terrorise me for 2 hours till i relented and called my neighbor who got rid of it in a couple seconds. I spent hours on the phone devising plans to kill it which included everything from smelling it to death with air freshener to smacking it with a shoe or shooting it with window cleaner - i was out of bugspray and the little bugger kept itself nicely out of range. It should be known, however, that bugs get pissed off if you hit them with window cleaner. It also gives them super flying powers.

I could write about the first episode of the new Martha show, which did not disappoint, but hearing her make fun about prison, or refer to being in prison was just plain weird. But we love martha. LOVE MARTHA.
She showed a quick t shirt folding method, and might i say, laundry day will never be the same.

I could write about the feelings of inadequacy i've had lately, when faced with a project that should have been easy and fun enough, but my skills were lacking, and i feel like even my people skills are lacking too, when it comes to dealing with clients and general client communication. I've wanted to hide again, hide under my desk and not be found. But i'm trying to work and to blow the dark cloud away.

I've found myself shrinking from tempting social events that have passed and are upcoming, because i'm not happy with how i look, not much has changed about how i look mind you, but my view has become so distorted i'm no longer quite sure exactly how i look.(this too shall pass)

I go from being excited about my upcoming trip, to being annoyed at having to go, because i failed at all the plans i had to make myself look different before i go.

I was finally able to produce a tiny sketch today, happy, cute and hopeful.

I continue to fight, giving up is not, nor ever has been an option.

Does anyone read my ramblings?
If you're out there, let me know :)