Creating my life, one pixel at a time.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Adios

To my 2 readers
I'm starting a new blog, this one has been a wonderful outlet for me creatively and a good way to let out a lot of frustration.
I started it as a naive girl and have since grown into a woman.
Always a girl at heart, a child too, i feel like quite the grown up and its time to leave a lot behind - including this blog.
I'm hoping i can contain this little box of frustration and set it free. I have moved to a new blog and feel free to email me for the new link - or leave a comment with your email asking for it.
Thank you for reading and supporting, you still can, just in a whole spankin new place:)
Kris.

Saturday, October 29, 2005

leaving on a jetplane

toooo badd that i'll be bacck again.
Sorry for scaring the pants offa some of you with my depressed posts
it was just sucking for a while..still is but i'm getting out.
Going on vacation for a bit.
see you bitches when i get back.

luv yah.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

sometimes it hurts

to breathe.
When in one instant you realise that for the past decade the world has moved but you've forgotten to.
When you realise that fear has ruled your life and you can never get back the time you've lost.
When you come to see that you have no idea who you are, what you're about, what you want to do, what you need to do.
Sometimes leaving seems like a good idea.
You leave one place for another and yet you're still that same nobody, just in a different place.









this, my friends, is rock bottom.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

bah

i think i'm too depressed to blog.
Sigh.
I'm healthy, alive and blessed in so many ways.
But when the one thing you've been after all year, just seems like it ain't gonna happen, you feel like the bullshit has won, and you die just a little bit inside.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHhhhhh
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHUGHHHHHHHHHH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..
Fuckit
Fuck it ALL

Saturday, September 24, 2005

¿Dónde está el hombre de mis sueños?



So...this is why i've decided, that i need a husband.
Sometimes i sit and think and suddenly realise, that i need something.
I had to have the bread machine, so i got one and boy was i happy with it, how did i EVER live without one?
The swiffer sweeper? Same deal. My various digital toys, yep, i think it up, i need it badly, i get it, i love it.
So i suddenly thought, on thursday night, that i need me a husband.
It started a while ago really, when i kept borrowing friends husbands for things. Usually i have help if i really need it or at least a second opinion, but on this particular night, nobody.
First there was the giant bug that was trying to kill me earlier in the week. My neighbor's husband took care of that for me. Then my bulb changing incident a couple days later which another neighbor's husband solved for me. This led to Thursday night when i was getting ready for a party.
I was making dip..fattening dip that i didn't want to taste for fear of the dreaded calorie. I ended up having to taste it myself. I grumbled and thought , ugh i need a husband.
Then i proceeded to get ready. I needed a second opinion on my shirt..can ya see my bra through it can ya? I turned this way and that...but i needed that second opinion. Then there was the slicing of the cucumbers for the dip..skin on? skin off? Nobody to back me up...one quick phonecall and the skin was left on. See if i had a husband i wouldn't have had to place the phonecall and it cost money. Having a husband would save me money apparently. Then there was the oh shit i'm drying my hair its at a crucial stage of almost straight enough...when the oven timer goes off...do i rush to the aid of my brownies and forsake my perfect coif? Sigh..if i had a husband he'd take them out of the oven FOR ME!
Then there was the whole balancing two dishes whilst walking down a LOT of stairs in very tiny heels. Hubby would have carried the dishes FOR ME.
I come home, look at the kitchen that needs a little bit of tidying up and know that i need to workout before it gets too late and a neighbor complains about stomping over their head, so i forfeit dishes (that hubby would have done of course) and i work out. As soon as i'm done? Power went out. Great. Lovely. I need a shower, the pump doesn't work when the power is out, hubby would have gone downstairs and gotten me a bucket of water, tho i hate bucketing it, sometimes its necessary here.
So i hung around..by myself..so bored because there's NOTHING TO DO WHEN THE POWER GOES OUT - hubby would have entertained me.
So i grumble and sit seething in the silence till the power comes back on.
Then proceed to bathe and then do the dishes, then hop into bed , where , alas, there definitely was no hubby to partake in those festivities either.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

You Just Don't Fit In.

Gosh has it really been 4 days since i've posted.
Geez.
I watched the Martha Stewart version of the apprentice tonight.
(it's premiere night)
Boy do i have a whole hell of a lot to say.
I LOVE MARTHA
Always have, always will. Always always.
The woman dresses in martha stewart signature colors -which match the entire omnimedia office which is painted and decorated using martha stewart signature colors.
The decor of the conference room they used is just absolutely beautiful. Serene background showcasing an impressive dark laquered table atop which sits three small square bows filled with some neat, green bushy thing. (I kept trying to see what it is but i'l keep peeking till i figure it out)
Her right hand people are her daughter Alexis and chairman of the board Charles Koppelman (who it turns out knows one of the candidates and was oh so shocked to see her walking into the conference room) He mentioned it and informed her that if she's as good as the rest of them, she has a chance. Martha inquired as to the nature of the relation and he said that she was a friend of his daughter and he'd known her since she was 15. The girl later added that she dated his son at some point.
The team members were asked to split themselves into two companies a la Trump's version and they split Creative vs Corporate - creative being called Matchstick and corporate being primerius (er i need to double check that). Bad bad BAD idea!
You never put a bunch of creatives together without corporate/managerial intervention. As much as we hate them, we cannot organise and execute anything - especially a creative endeavour without having a hellacious time. Creatives, while we appreciate other's work we also find fault easily and everyone wants it to be their way. We also spend a lot of time on the creative aspect of things (duh its our job) and sometimes have a lot of trouble with the delegation and project management, budget etc side of things. This was like watching a trainwreck unfold as the creatives squabbled and the project manager (who i personally think needed to be on the corporate end of things) Jeff hung on to the reins and basically hung everyone with it. He ultimately went home with the new phrase ' you just don't fit in' which is VERY martha but packs nowhere near the punch of The Donald's 'You're Fired'.
It was amazing to see an entire group after voicing very valid concerns over the project, allow themselves to be taken over completely by the project manager, hm. I know he was project manager and ultimate decisions were up to him, but there were people more qualified to handle the project and he, as a project manager needed to recognise this and delegate to suit.
The book was terrible, the way it was written was terrible ( he tried to be Dr Seuss and to say he failed miserably is an understatement).
The other group re wrote jack and the beanstalk as an undersea version and pre tested it on kids before finalising it - the corporate heads were strategising while the creatives caved in to jerky Jeff's joke of a fairytale.
Jim will prove to be a toe cruncher as his inappropriate and ill timed humor lends to an impression of him being a slacker with a big mouth. I love Howie he's my guy right now. The girl Bethenny (who Charles knew) seems to be a bit of a firecracker so she's one to watch as well. She mouthed off on Dawn in the board room and thank God it got silenced before she started growing fangs. Martha won't have fangs in her conference room no sir. The texture 'Just don't fit in.'
I think Dawn had a lot to offer today and maybe she wasn't vocal enough in expressing it to Jeff, but due to editing, who knows, i doubt Jeff would have listened anyways. Jeff was definitely not a team player and it showed instantly. I can't wait to watch next week to see what plays off.
Btw...did any of you guys want that sushi more than i did?
Droooooool.